((Uh… I can’t tell if this is ooc or not, but I’m going to err on the side that it is.
Reaching out is not stupid. I am absolutely glad that you did! Thank you so much for messaging me.
If you feel like hurting yourself, grab some ice. Take an ice cube and hold it in your fist. It’s a grounding technique as well as a way to ‘hurt’ yourself without actually doing any real lasting harm. Because what you need really is a way to ground yourself.
I promise that you’re caught up in emotions right now – purely emotions. It doesn’t seem like it at all, I know, but when you’re upset sometimes your brain does a thing where it tries to think of ways to fuel your malcontent – by telling you people don’t appreciate you or that you’re not good enough or whatever else is going through your head. I promise you that this is just a wave and it will pass. I promise – after you’ve grounded yourself, had a good cry, and maybe a nap, you will feel better. Exhausted, yes, but not in emotional pain.
Please, don’t hurt yourself. Take an ice cube and just hold it. Focus on the chill and the wetness and the stinging sensation it gives. Look around yourself and identify objects. Look at the texture of a wall or on your shoelace or something – something finely detailed that will occupy your mind with an observable pattern to help you feel a sense of order.
Take care of yourself… you’re in pain now, but I promise that it will go away. Please.
The Perfect Scientist 