((I am so sorry that you are feeling this way. I have said this before, but I know how painful it can be and how overwhelming it is.
If you do feel like hurting yourself or doing something to yourself, please call someone – someone you trust or a crisis line here
1-800-273-8255. If you don’t want to call, I did just find a chat box here https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/chat/.
The chat box says that it’s completely confidential and that they can help talk you through what you’re feeling and give you some resources.
You’re not a pathetic excuse, I promise. You are valued and this current state of mind that you’re in is not really you. I promise you, this will pass. You want to end the pain, not yourself.
Again, I’m so glad that you messaged me, and I truly hope that I am helping you through this. I’d like to believe so, since you keep messaging. You are loved and valued!
The Perfect Scientist 