((okay… how do I explain it to my family that I don’t want to see Infinity War because I have anxiety and ASD, the latter which makes it tough for me to separate movies from reality on an emotional level, and I’d really rather not have an anxiety attack in the middle of a theatre or be dropped into a month-long depression because fictional characters died, even though I know that logically it’s not real?
What has been said by my step-mom: “You need to develop coping mechanisms”, “You can just get over anxiety”, “It’s not real! [the movie]”
I’m not gonna see it for a while. A friend spoiled the deaths for me and I just…. I cried all day because I’m just like you with that separation of movies and such. When Yondu died I just…. Yeah.”
((I’m sorry :c I did get a list of some of the deaths and currently tumblr is one by one filling in the gaps.
I already go through life floating on a cloud of disassociation – I emotionally experience things from reality to TV on roughly the same level. And When I do show emotions, I feel them in the extreme.
I cried hard when Yondu died. I’d rather not feel like the world is going to end, thanks.
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