HHey Max? Buddy? You okay? @dedmaxsearchhistory
*he’s just staring up at the sky* yeah, i guess..
Is there anything I can do for you, Max?
*he goes quiet for a moment* ..no, not that i can think of anyway..
You sure? I could take you out to get ice cream or something…
.. i can’t actually eat ice cream, just makes me sick *he puts his hands under his head*
Oh. Well maybe some smoothies or something? I just… I wanna help you out, Max. See if you’re okay…
well i’m not currently crying, so i have that going for me *he glances at Carlos*
Want to talk about what happened…?
*he frowns slightly* i.. i don’t know…
Okay… that’s okay. If you need anything at all, Max, let me know…
… *he sighs softly, looking up again* life’s fucked up.. and i’m getting tired of it..
I… I’m sorry, Max. I’m sorry that it’s hard.
*he sits up, hugging his knees to his chest* ….
*Carlos sat down next to him. He was quiet as he wasn’t sure about what to do for Max.
.. maybe i’m just cursed… maybe i am just a horribl person that pushes people away…
You’re not a horrible person, Max. You’re just a kid… you’re too young to be put in camps like ‘horrible’.
yeah, but i’m in a camp that’s pretty horrible *he chuckles weakly*
doesn’t change all the horrible stuff i did though..*laughs a bit in response. He hadn’t realized his own joke actually.* What I meant is you still have time to be a better person, you know? Be someone that you know you can be.
… i don’t know if i can even be someone anymore..
…. What do you mean, Max?
i mean look at me! i can’t eat anything unless it’s raw meat, i can’t go anywhere without freaking people out with all my fucking scars.. i don’t even know if i can still grow like a normal person!
I… I’m not sure what to say to some of that, Max. I don’t know if you can grow up either. But… you can still learn mentally, right?
i guess.. *he hugs his knees again*
Do… do you want a hug, Max?
.. yeah *he wipes his eyes*
*He reaches and pulls the boy into his lap to hold him close.*
*he tightly hugs the other, burying his face in his shoulder as he did*
*Carlos just held him and rubbed his back. He made himself comfortable, expecting this to be a long sit*
*he shook slightly as he let himself break down into quiets sobs after a long moment*
*Carlos was silent. He didn’t know what to say right then. And he didn’t want anything he said to be lost on Max while he cried. So he just held him and let him cry.*
*he sniffled as he tried to calm himself, only for his shaking to get worse*
It’s okay, Max… it’s okay to let it out. Go on… I’m right here. *it broke Carlos’ heart to hear Max like this. But he really sounded like he needed it.*
*he took in a shakey breath, sobbing harder then before*
*the pain was almost enough to make Carlos cry too. But he tried not to – Max didn’t need both of them crying. He just held the boy. Rubbed his back, rocked him a little bit. It was all he could do.*
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