there’s nothing i can get to but ive been scratching my arms and face meaning that ive got multiple spots where im bleeding… im sorry for bothering you im sorry for still being alive —

((I’m glad that you reached out. Try getting some ice and just holding onto it in your hand until it hurts. Or get a piece of paper and tear it into little pieces. If you need to, you can also try just writing out what’s going on in your head. You don’t have to keep the writing, but it might help you process through some of it. And afterward you can either burn or flush the paper if you don’t want to keep it around.