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i just…….. i want to be okay again… i want to not have to do things secretly…. i want time to think that wont end up in me hating myself… i want a hug… i want to be fine… im fucking sobbing and i hate myself for it… its irrational…

((just because the reason for the pain doesn’t make sense to your logical-thinking mind, it doesn’t mean that it doesn’t hurt.

It might be hard to understand at this point in time, but you have to remember that you will be okay again. I promise you will. It’s okay to cry it out and be angry because that’s how your emotions sometimes need to be processed

Make sure to drink water – it’ll help you not feel so yucky while this is all going on.

Remember, it’s also okay to start feeling better. If you start to lighten up, don’t feel bad about it.

I hope this helps, I really do.

there’s nothing i can get to but ive been scratching my arms and face meaning that ive got multiple spots where im bleeding… im sorry for bothering you im sorry for still being alive —

((I’m glad that you reached out. Try getting some ice and just holding onto it in your hand until it hurts. Or get a piece of paper and tear it into little pieces. If you need to, you can also try just writing out what’s going on in your head. You don’t have to keep the writing, but it might help you process through some of it. And afterward you can either burn or flush the paper if you don’t want to keep it around.

i wrapped the cuts with some bandages, i don’t know whether i should be thankful or more depressed that my family didn’t even ask about it… then again, i do wear the bandages alot.. -late night anon

i think i cried more last night then i have in.. what feels like years at this point -late night anon
       
   

((I’m so sorry that you went through that. It sounds like some part of you, while ashamed at what happened, wants to talk it out with someone in your family.

Make sure you eat something and drink something. I really think you should talk to your Mom about what happened. Not necessarily about feelings you had about her, but to give her some information about what’s going on in your head. Write it into a letter if speaking is too uncomfortable and you’re worried about not telling all the information that you want to.

I’m not making you do that by the way, I just really think you should talk to her.

In the meantime, what I also suggest is looking up ‘try not to smile challenges’. Not the ‘try not to laugh’ because it might be too much, but a try not to smile. And While watching one, don’t feel bad about smiling. If you do it, I want you to tell yourself that despite everything, you can still smile.

Please take care of yourself. I know and understand that this was hard and painful, but it’s okay. And I don’t want you to feel bad about what you did. Try to understand that when you’re having an attack like this, your brain can’t function rationally. It’s all emotion. You just need to bandage up and keep going. It’s like a paddle-ball – sometimes you’ll miss the ball, but you keep going.

I hope this helps, and I sincerely hope you feel better soon okay? Like I said, drink something and eat something to help your body feel better too.

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Carlos made a little yelping noise in horrified shock. No! his mind screamed, as his mouth
couldn’t form the words. It’s not Hancock’s
fault! It’s not your fault!!

He hiccupped and made a soft, distressed moaning sound.
Carlos wriggled his hand out of Hancock’s grip and wrapped his arm around
himself to hug himself tightly. He wanted to run – run so that Hancock didn’t
have to look at his ugly crying face and feel bad about it. But that would
require moving, which immediately wasn’t possible. Hancock was still
practically on top of him. And in addition, Carlos was naked. He felt so
exposed and raw already — he didn’t want to try uncurling and getting up to
get his clothes on.

But he might have to. He wanted to be alone so badly.