i-i should just shut up now, i’m sure i’m just bothering you more then usually.. thank you for trying and i’m sorry i couldn;t try harder.. -late night anon

((Don’t be sorry – I’m choosing to respond. And I’m very glad that you felt comfortable enough to talk to me, even on anon. That’s a GOOD thing! It’s a good thing to reach out when you’re upset and not feeling well.

You can’t be faulted for wanting help – I don’t put fault on you for that at all.

it doesn’t feel like i can.. it just feels my whole existance was a mistake.. probably because it was -late night anon

((That’s the anxiety and the intrusive thoughts talking. THat’s not true. I know it feels that way, but our emotions sometimes lie to us when we’re in distress. I promise, this won’t last. This is just an episode – it’ll pass, I promise.

i have given myself time to think and be upset, but it’s just makes everything worse. i look around and all i see are the mistakes i’ve made and the things i’ve abandoned. i start to feel the things around me but it all feels the same, and i shouldn’t waste anymore ice. it’s hard to breath when it feels like the weight of the world is on your chest, but that’s just allergies for you i guess… -late night anon

((you’re not wasting ice. It’s just water – you can’t waste a handful of water. It’s okay because it’s supposed to help you.

Try to take deep breaths. Start with looking at only one thing. Like a shoe. I know, it’s hard, but please try.

I know, it hurts. I understand that it does, and I”m sorry. If you need to, jump onto a crisis chat. I know that sounds extreme and you probably don’t want to do it right now, but it could help you get out of the worst of it.